.You'll Never Know Me. By: Marie Castiano

You'll Never Know Me

By:Marie Castiano

I wish that I could disappear from this Earth,

I've been wanting this since the day of my birth,

Or at least I wish that I could bring the tyrant down,

have the satisfaction of seeing him fall,

push him up against the wall.

See his tears fall to the floor,

one every year, one for every time I wished that

I wasn't even here.

I've had these feelings from the very beginning.

It lurked in my soul, it made my heart cold.

I no longer feel love,

I no longer feel shame,

I no longer feel feeling or nothing but pain.

I carried this in my mind, until it started eating at me.

All I could think about was,

when will it end,

when will this useless existence bring peace to my friend.

I talk about myself because I felt like,

no one was there, I felt like,

there was never anyone that gave their hand to share.

So why would I care,

If u ever look at me again,

If I ever smile again,

I promise you it'll rain up my friend,

If u ever hear laughter it didnt come from me,

because all you will hear when you're around me,

is that deep subtle sigh of grief.

I carve this in stone,

so you'll always know what I brought to you here.

I no longer feel fear,

I no longer feel remorse,

I no longer have the joy that God blessed you with.

But I know that one day you'll see me look up

and it'll be the end of it.

You'll no longer see me,

You'll no longer feel me,

You'll no longer have to deal with these cold painful words of misery,

You'll never know me.

By:Marie Castiano