Clearing My Head By: Marie Castiano

Clearing My Head

By: Marie Castiano

First off, first dose, today I don't feel like most,

feelin like E, in solitary confinement,

i couldn't even find it, the exit,

where did it go?

feel like im bein pushed below.

Today is like fuck evertything, and everyone

I got a different perspective,

today I'm one,

with the evil bitch inside of me,

today she won,

she doesn't always take over,

but today something's being pushed over.

I feel like an avenger today,

feel like killin somebody if I don't get my own way,

feel like finally sayin,

what I've always wanted to say,

fell like sayin, fuck all ya'll

and juz walkin away.

Feel like gettin payback on all those

that did me wrong,

feel like reincarnating some fucked up song,

that i threw away cuz the shyt was too fuckin long,

feel like making them feel,

the way they made me feel,

feel like choking them out,

till i hear them all squeal,

hear them scream,

saying incoherent words,

that belong to those forbidden lost souls,

got lost in the forbidden crossroads.

Believe me im real,

and today I feel,

like you wont be able to deal,

with the pain I feel,

And if I could just have one person

that really understands,

that one single person don't have to be my fam.

Juzt enough for me to empty my mental,

and expose feelings that have always been unexpressed,

things that I've never had the strength

to really digest,

and if I could let go,

it might bring some peace to my soul,

and delay the process of wanting to explode.

By: Marie Castiano